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Afera je mjesto koje želiš i dijeliš
kojem se unaprijed i unazad veseliš
dok pomno čuvaš ono što već imaš
iako znaš da na stolici toj se klimaš.

U tom novom stanju postaješ dijete
uzimaš doze veselja iz te epruvete
koja sadrži sve ono čemu se nisi nadao
dok si u sigurnom okruženju i padao.

Taj novi prostor koji daje energiju
iziskuje vrlo jasnu i jaku strategiju
da u nju ne posumnja netko drugi
koji i sa grijehom baca kamen prvi.

Zaljubiš se ponovno u život oko sebe
sve se čini plod koji čeka da se bere
slike u glavi debelo poprimaju viziju
okolina se doima kao spot za televiziju.

Želiš novu osobu, a pokraj sebe drugu
izmjenjuješ raspoloženje iz sreće u tugu
drugoj bi dao sve, a zvuči kao obećanje
dok prvoj poradi savjesti podižeš imanje.

Kroz novac, putovanja i javne nastupe
savršenu sliku života kroz leće plastike
da bi zbog mrvu sreće plaćali navike
jer ne želmo javne drame, a niti panike.

Anestezija u vidu pretrpanosti radom
sa pićem, dva, tri, javno i češće kradom
zbunjenošću koja pogađa, a oštri misli
dok osjećaš da su se i atomi u tebi stisli.

Pa kao robot se počinješ zapravo kretati
drugima se veseliš, a onda počinju smetati
ne možeš bez njih jer afere iziskuju akciju
kako god okreneš uvijek izazivaju reakciju.

S ljubavlju, Željka.

Autor: Željka Šabić

An affair is a place you
desire and share,
one you look forward to,
both ahead and behind,
while carefully guarding
what you already have,
though you know you are
unsteady in that seat.

In this new state,
you become a child,
taking doses of
joy from that test tube
which contains everything
you never expected,
while you were falling even
within a safe environment.

That new space, which gives you energy,
requires a very clear and strong strategy
so that no one else begins to suspect it—
even one who, though sinful,
casts the first stone.

You fall in love again
with the life around you;
everything seems like fruit
waiting to be picked.
The images in your mind
take on a vivid vision;
your surroundings feel like
a scene from television.

You desire a new person while
another stands beside you;
your mood shifts from happiness to sorrow.
You would give everything to the other—it sounds like a promise—while,
out of conscience,
you build up wealth for the first.

Through money, travel, and
public appearances,
you create a perfect image
of life through plastic lenses,
paying for habits for the sake
of a tiny piece of happiness,
because you want neither
public drama nor panic.

Anesthesia comes in the form of being overwhelmed with work,
with one, two, or three drinks—openly,
and more often in secret—
with confusion that strikes
yet sharpens the mind,
while you feel even the atoms
within you tightening.

Then you begin to move like a robot;
you rejoice in others, and then
they start to bother you.
You cannot do without them,
because affairs demand action;
however you turn it, they always
provoke a reaction.

With love, Željka.

Author: Željka Šabić